You know the summer is over when you turn off the A/C, pull out the long sleeve cotton t-shirts, crave comfort food on a daily basis, and in my world... hearing your best friend scream at the football game on television. I don't regret, never have and never will but I will say that the last few months could have been approached more carefully. Don't get me wrong, I have had a blast BUT it came with a price. Decisions were made without thought and care of the consequences that unraveled without warning.
In my reality there is no such thing as worry. I refuse to carry the burden of worry, it's unnecessary and causes wrinkles. Not really a bad quality to possess personally but the image it projects to others... not so socially acceptable. Some labels that come to mind are; bitch, asshole, Satan, etc. etc.
I was watching a show on The History Channel about the seven deadly sins recently. Then a realization exploded - this has been a summer of sin, not sin as in criminal or hell bound worthy. But rather personal sin, sin committed to my reality and against myself.
Sloth - Strayed away from organization was the root of many of the "issues" I created for myself this Summer.
Anger - Not allowing myself to regain composure before hastily making decisions out of upset and in some instances pure hatred.
Gluttony - Yes it's Summer Hollee but that doesn't mean you have to party every single day!!
Envy - The lesser of all the sins I committed. Nonetheless, yearning for the pay off of hard work without doing the work... Guilty!
Pride - Ummmmmm yeah. It's all about me, always. AND... Gay Pride 2010?? Helloooo! That is where I added a couple more notches on the sinning belt. Oohwee, it was a shit show and I would do it all over again!! (This sin is, for lack of a better word... my favorite. LOL)
Lust - Didn't have much of the lusting on my part. But having everyone else look at you like a Ethiopian looks at an all you can eat buffet projected the evil eye of lust all over me. Wait - there's my pride coming through... AGAIN!
Greed - The sin I claim to be unintentional on my part, except for the poor decisions. My way or the highway attitude is selfish and I know that this needs to be eliminated from my being permanently.
I would absolutely love to post the stories and situations that presented itself this past Summer. But out of respect for myself, my friends, my family, and everyone else in the world I think it best that what you don't know won't hurt you and/or cause you to hurt me! LOL
Much love to all of you (and to myself as I kiss the reflection in the mirror.) The remainder of 2010 is going to be filled with a range of emotions, but it is up to ourselves to make the decision to decipher and learn from the outcomes.
Smooches,
H. Wood
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